I just got this book on Amazon and am reading it tonight!
Yesterday, I went to church, had a cross of ashes placed upon my forehead and confessed my sins before God. I swore off sugar, oil, and salt for the 40 days of Lent. I actually want to swear off of it longer than that, like forever! I don't like anything having control over me. I questioned whether it did, but being 150 lbs overweight points in that direction, and today proved it beyond a shadow of doubt. I just finished eating two helpings of spaghetti with mushrooms, onions and green peppers cooked in olive oil and spaghetti sauce along with four slices of toast with garlic butter on it. I ate veggies cooked in oil for lunch too. It was just a little bit I told myself. Now I see where a little bit leads to.
It all reminds me of the scene in Bram Stroker's Dracula (the one where Gary Oldman plays Dracula) and a group of people come in baring crosses thinking that will destroy Dracula, but it has no affect on him. This food addiction feels like Dracula and I feel like Mina lusting after junk food.
As defeated as I feel when I give into cravings, there is a warrior inside me that dares to rise up with God overshadowing me. I will keep the faith. I will keep doing what it takes. I know it's not easy, but it will be worth it to rid my body of this demon!
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